Saturday 21 January 2012

Don't ever let your light fade...

Hey guys,

Life is really quiet strange sometimes. I remember starting secondary school and thinking what the hell am I going to do here? Now I am sitting with that part of my life closely finishing and I am looking back and thinking did I make an impact? Gandhi once said "Everything you do in life is insignificant, but it's important you do it" and every time I have to ask myself why? I remember it and think it's what I have to do.  I am an enigma in a world full of people trying to find a purpose for their lives because I know I have a purpose, I just need it to find me. Every choice I have made was for a reason and I am not going to stop now. Just because I am ever more looking towards a path that I should follow is no reason for me to change. I have to choose the four subjects that will change my life and I have looked at Uni's and decided amongst the amass that is my future I can see myself in a few certain situations and I know the subjects I want to take to get myself there, its better to work backwards from the goal to the start than to run into a wall you wern't expecting. My mind may change and I have made room for that - being the sensible girl I am. It helps to roughly know yourself by now.

So Four subjects, Two years, 3 A2 Levels and 1 As, a potential end destination, all starts with the boxes I tick and the T's I cross.

Its surreal.

Amongst my many years however, I have always been a certain person, though slightly evolved. My personality is my light, and although in dark times it has been slightly dimmed, I have always tried to be true to myself, because if you can't do that then you can't be true to anyone else. And I urge all of you who reads this, whoever you are and whatever age, never let your light fade. Its the best part of you, it makes people want to be with you, it makes people love you, it makes people care. The world is a dark place but let yourself be the beacon that guides others out of it. Don't stand in someone else's shade because it's easier to let them shine. You can be brighter than the sun, or the stars, or the supernova's and that's supposed to be pretty bright according to current science!

Being true can seem like a minefield if you are trying to find yourself, trust me, but all you need is your heart, your light is shining from there. If you are struggling surround yourself with your friends lights and they will guide you because:

"Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try and fix you...."


Lots of love guys,

Amber xx